I miss you more then i should. I miss everything we had. I miss your laugh. I miss your touch. I miss your smile. I miss our fun times. I miss your gentle eyes. I miss the way we have fun. I miss how we can be open with each other. I miss just lying down together. I miss how awesome it felt just being with you. I miss everything it could've been. I miss the good times. I miss the bad times. Yes we had our issues, but honestly who doesn't now a days. I just want to refresh, start over. Without my insecurity. I know i ruined this. I'm well aware that my issues with your past coming back into what i had taken into my life ruined a lot of what we had. For that i am so sorry. Please just take this to heart, please think about it. I just want this to go back even though i know it never can. I care about you more then i ever thought i would. I miss you so much more then i ever thought i would. Babe, you're amazing, i bluffed, i want you back badly. I have a feeling you want the same. I'm ready for this to change. I really am. Let's do it, i know we can.
JayEhm.
Monday, November 15, 2010
& I was so right.
Yupp another waste of time, good thing i saw this one before attempting to rebound! Yayy Jenna. Guess ima still be stuck on complicated person #1. Awsome. Did i mention he's my neighbour? Yesss awsome to the extreme.
Yess that is all i had to say.
JayEhm.
Yess that is all i had to say.
JayEhm.
Case of the Mondays
Happy Monday everyone. I woke up this morning all set to go, not tierd, not grumpy. I was set. Got on my bus, took my other bus then my other one, got to school then BAM weirdness. School turned my whole feelings around. I don't know what it is or why it happened, it just happened. Everyone seemed to have a case of the Mondays except me. Oh well, I'm going to try and keep up my good mood and maybe cheer others up and get them outta their funk. On another note a certain someone is being very odd and it's starting to cause me wonders. Got to school and was completely ignored, no hi no nothing. Random. Oh well I'm not letting myself make the same go chase after someone mistake again, it's not the way to go. Someone wants you, they should come to you. It's honestly about time i learn that and thanks to my past complications i took out some very good things. I learned patience and understanding more then anyone should ever learn, i learned to not waste my time, learned i should stick with my instincts and of course to go back and not trust anyone. That was my biggest mistake. Usually i tend to be very selective on who gets trust from me and who doesn't well folks, Jenna gave her trust very quickly to someone who didn't end up deserving it at all. You know what i got in return? A whole big fat load of nothing. So this time or any other time I'm just not going to let myself go, I'm going to be in control. I thought i was before with the last situation but i was highly mistaken. Well at least i got some learning out of it all. I hope everyone is having a great Monday and i will blog later on today I'm highly sure of it.
JayEhm.
JayEhm.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Life isn't shitty all the time, just most of the time.
So I've realized that people don't tend to actually care or know much. Like in general, not about you, not about work, not about school it's just a feeling we have. Take this for example; "What do you wanna do today?" "Uh, i dunno i don't care." or "So do you have anything to say to that?" "I don't know." We use idc, idk all the time in texts, face book, msn, wherever.
It's kinda ridiculous because you would think people would know and care about what they want, don't want, need, don't need, feel, don't feel, but we don't. It doesn't help that people don't even have face to face interaction it's all done over text messages or face book. It's sad really seeing emotional and meaningful conversation just get flushed down the toilet while we all get sucked into every aspect of technology. Now not for a second am i gonna bash technology without stating how i use the term "face book me" or "inbox me" even "text me", it has come into our language so casually. I'm just saying how people can't actually express themselves anymore we have to hide behind cell phones, computers & laptops. The worst of it all is face book, like seriously I've seen face book ruin so many relationships because of all the drama that gets caused by others or just by your "change of relationship status". I changed mine this week due to some inconvenience in my relationship and now i have people texting me, face booking me, just simply generally talking to me more and they all start off by saying "I see you changed your relationship status." How bad is it that someone can't go single for more then 5 mins without being bothered. It's not like i was even classified as "In a relationship" I had put down "It's complicated" but yet within 5 mins i got messages asking am i alright, what happened, blah blah blah. What bothers me the most about technology and how anti social people get with each other even though it's beyond ironic that what we use is called social networking and social plans for cell phones, is that you can't read someones emotions or tons or facial expression over text, you have to be with the person to see it and it causes so much shit to the point where you could take the simplest sentence so wrong and it could start a huge fight.
The best way of describing today's way and how we use technology for everything was said in the movie "He's just not that into you" where one of the female characters is sick of dating with today's technology she says " I had a guy leave me a voice mail at work, so i called him at home, and then he emailed me to my blackberry, and so i texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies. It's exhausting." Everyday someone is getting rejected by technology, it's no longer happening in person. Where has our personal contact gone? Oh i know, the only personal contact people get is after they go through all the bull over face book or over cell phone is a booty call. Pretty much to sum it all up, stop being so anti social everyone, take time to talk to people, get to know them. It will pay off in the long run, i promise.
JayEhm.
It's kinda ridiculous because you would think people would know and care about what they want, don't want, need, don't need, feel, don't feel, but we don't. It doesn't help that people don't even have face to face interaction it's all done over text messages or face book. It's sad really seeing emotional and meaningful conversation just get flushed down the toilet while we all get sucked into every aspect of technology. Now not for a second am i gonna bash technology without stating how i use the term "face book me" or "inbox me" even "text me", it has come into our language so casually. I'm just saying how people can't actually express themselves anymore we have to hide behind cell phones, computers & laptops. The worst of it all is face book, like seriously I've seen face book ruin so many relationships because of all the drama that gets caused by others or just by your "change of relationship status". I changed mine this week due to some inconvenience in my relationship and now i have people texting me, face booking me, just simply generally talking to me more and they all start off by saying "I see you changed your relationship status." How bad is it that someone can't go single for more then 5 mins without being bothered. It's not like i was even classified as "In a relationship" I had put down "It's complicated" but yet within 5 mins i got messages asking am i alright, what happened, blah blah blah. What bothers me the most about technology and how anti social people get with each other even though it's beyond ironic that what we use is called social networking and social plans for cell phones, is that you can't read someones emotions or tons or facial expression over text, you have to be with the person to see it and it causes so much shit to the point where you could take the simplest sentence so wrong and it could start a huge fight.
The best way of describing today's way and how we use technology for everything was said in the movie "He's just not that into you" where one of the female characters is sick of dating with today's technology she says " I had a guy leave me a voice mail at work, so i called him at home, and then he emailed me to my blackberry, and so i texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies. It's exhausting." Everyday someone is getting rejected by technology, it's no longer happening in person. Where has our personal contact gone? Oh i know, the only personal contact people get is after they go through all the bull over face book or over cell phone is a booty call. Pretty much to sum it all up, stop being so anti social everyone, take time to talk to people, get to know them. It will pay off in the long run, i promise.
JayEhm.
Cupcake Making
Picture taken by DDS Photography
Steph with a cupcake
Me with a cupcake
Cupcakes
Dinosaurs!
Cupcakes
Getting the icing ready
Yes we made them from a box, icing was from scratch though.
Stephy being silly with the beaters =]
Wait, Stop, Refresh.
Hello everyone, I have now officially restarted my blog. Why? Some may ask, well I got lazy and didn't ever write. So here I am, restarting, I even deleted all my other posts from before to refresh my blog. Later I will be posting the cupcake adventure i had with ddscutecakes (check her out) but for now I will just ramble on about anything. I am currently focusing on attending university for fall 2011. I plan on taking communications so i can work in Public Relations. We will see how this goes. Unfortunatly Im at Adult High School due to some misfortune I had as well as needing more university level courses to attend my program. But this will be bye for now. Promise to write soon.
JayEhm.
JayEhm.
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