Missing you.

I miss you more then i should. I miss everything we had. I miss your laugh. I miss your touch. I miss your smile. I miss our fun times. I miss your gentle eyes. I miss the way we have fun. I miss how we can be open with each other. I miss just lying down together. I miss how awesome it felt just being with you. I miss everything it could've been. I miss the good times. I miss the bad times. Yes we had our issues, but honestly who doesn't now a days. I just want to refresh, start over. Without my insecurity. I know i ruined this. I'm well aware that my issues with your past coming back into what i had taken into my life ruined a lot of what we had. For that i am so sorry. Please just take this to heart, please think about it. I just want this to go back even though i know it never can. I care about you more then i ever thought i would. I miss you so much more then i ever thought i would. Babe, you're amazing, i bluffed, i want you back badly. I have a feeling you want the same. I'm ready for this to change. I really am. Let's do it, i know we can.


JayEhm.

& I was so right.

Yupp another waste of time, good thing i saw this one before attempting to rebound! Yayy Jenna. Guess ima still be stuck on complicated person #1. Awsome. Did i mention he's my neighbour? Yesss awsome to the extreme.

Yess that is all i had to say.


JayEhm.

Case of the Mondays

Happy Monday everyone. I woke up this morning all set to go, not tierd, not grumpy. I was set. Got on my bus, took my other bus then my other one, got to school then BAM weirdness. School turned my whole feelings around. I don't know what it is or why it happened, it just happened. Everyone seemed to have a case of the Mondays except me. Oh well, I'm going to try and keep up my good mood and maybe cheer others up and get them outta their funk. On another note a certain someone is being very odd and it's starting to cause me wonders. Got to school and was completely ignored, no hi no nothing. Random. Oh well I'm not letting myself make the same go chase after someone mistake again, it's not the way to go. Someone wants you, they should come to you. It's honestly about time i learn that and thanks to my past complications i took out some very good things. I learned patience and understanding more then anyone should ever learn, i learned to not waste my time, learned i should stick with my instincts and of course to go back and not trust anyone. That was my biggest mistake. Usually i tend to be very selective on who gets trust from me and who doesn't well folks, Jenna gave her trust very quickly to someone who didn't end up deserving it at all. You know what i got in return? A whole big fat load of nothing. So this time or any other time I'm just not going to let myself go, I'm going to be in control. I thought i was before with the last situation but i was highly mistaken. Well at least i got some learning out of it all. I hope everyone is having a great Monday and i will blog later on today I'm highly sure of it.



JayEhm.